Hurry up AF!

Finished my last provera pill a couple days ago and now I'm just waiting for AF to arrive so I can start clomid again....sometimes I think that I am crazy for going back to clomid....dealing with the hot flashes and what not but it's just so much cheaper and the 150 mg did make me o so why not give it another try.

I am usually really open about what I'm going through as far as fertility meds but this cycle I've decided to keep it to myself and a few choice people (and of course all the ladies on TTTC!)

I'm hoping for the best but don't really have any expectations this cycle. I'm just hoping to o on my own.

working lots of hours and that's about it.....

Today I am working a 14 hour shift....I have no idea what I was thinking when I signed up for it....I was thinking about the money, I guess. Still no AF in sight which is what I suspected would happen. I know I need to induce my period, but it's kind of nice being on a "mini break" from the whole IF thing. I am going back on clomid (my choice) because femara is so expensive and I didn't even ovulate this last cycle. I did ovulate on 150 mg of clomid so I'm going to try that route again.

I have not even begun to start the major procedures of IF. IUI and IVF are so expensive because I am completely OOP like a lot of women are and financially we just can't do it right now. It's so sad that it gets to a point that having a child depends on how much money you put into it....it just doesn't seem right.

I am just praying that the fertility meds work...otherwise, I might have to say goodbye to my dream of becoming a mommy.