tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18035346706053434442024-02-18T19:37:57.818-08:00~~~~~~Our TTC journey~~~~~bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.comBlogger20125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-12293887976257393112010-07-28T14:32:00.000-07:002010-07-28T14:38:42.813-07:00IUI#3=BFNI don't know why I let myself get hopeful every cycle! Monday was 15dpiui and no AF....so I tested and of course, BFN. The next day AF arrived. Blah!<br /><br />I know it sounds weird, but I'm kind of excited to be taking a break. It will be good for my sanity! I am hoping to drop some pounds and save up for IVF. I'm hoping we'll be able to do IVF sometime next year. I would like to drop about 50lbs before then. I found a great website to help me. <a href="http://sparkpeople.com">www.sparkpeople.com</a> I got that website from thebeadinglady! Thanks again for the tip!<br /><br />Thanks to everyone for being so supportive. It really sucks that we have to deal with so much heartache :(bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-66764432333987570652010-07-23T04:29:00.000-07:002010-07-23T04:34:55.492-07:00Wow! It's been a long time!I have been inspired by some of the girls on the IF board to start blogging again....I just sat and read through my old blogs....it's amazing to read the emotions that I experienced so long ago, and am still experiencing. <br /><br />Today, I am 12dpiui#3. I do not feel optimistic at all. So I guess I'm just waiting for AF to show. Unfortunately, if this cycle doesn't result in pregnancy, we are taking another break from TTC. I know that weight loss would help my chances of getting pregnant. Also, we need to save up some money because I think our next step will be IVF. We are lucky enough to now have 50% coverage for infertility but we have a $15,000 lifetime maximum, so I don't want to waste my entire coverage doing IUI's....I would rather move on with something that has a much higher chance of working!bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-83700782323599391992009-03-13T15:06:00.000-07:002009-03-13T15:12:11.874-07:00HSG day!I had my HSG this morning. It went great! Both tubes were open and it was painless. I only had to wait about 10 minutes for my doctor which was great....and since I work in the radiology department, the radiologist (the one who took the pictures) was really sweet. He was patting my shoulder and asking how I was. Anyways, I only felt a little pressure when he clamped my cervix and just a tiny bit of cramping when he injected the contrast. It wasn't bad at all!! My doc told me to use this cycle to my adavantage. I'm hoping the x-ray dye blasted my tubes WIDE open! Ben and I have talked about our next step if this cycle is a bust....and we have decided to take a break. Since we are completely out of pocket for infertility, we need to get our credit card payed off before we add more debt. I'm ok with our decision, but it makes me sad cause I know I'm not getting any younger.<br /><br />Weight loss as of Tuesday: 18.8 lbs!<br /><br />The thing that has sucked this week is that my home computer has a virus! And since I work at a hospital with public computers, I can't get online very often.bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-67753330141115210152009-03-04T06:23:00.000-08:002009-03-04T06:27:39.974-08:00HSG scheduledTo my disappointment, AF arrived Monday morning at work. I had a hard time holding it together because at the moment, I am working with 3 pregnant ladies and I just found out my sister is KU (after messing up her BCP's). So it's been difficult for me to be surrounded by baby bumps.<br /><br />The good news, I have an HSG scheduled for next Friday (March 13th). I am super excited because I know that those can be therapeutic and a lot of girls get pregnant after having that test done. Ben's SA is perfect so I'm hoping that this test will help me!<br /><br />On the weight loss front, I'm down 17.4 lbs!!bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-16891790237900681872009-02-22T05:56:00.001-08:002009-02-22T05:58:05.953-08:00FF gave me solid CH this morning!According to FF I'm 3dpo today! I had a follie scan on Monday and I had a 30mm follie. I really hope this is finally my cycle!<br /><br />As far as weight loss goes....I'm down 14.6 lbs. I have another weigh in on Tuesday! I hope the fact that I have been losing weight jump started my body into wanting to get pregnant!bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-48445213629721653922009-02-08T00:06:00.000-08:002009-02-08T00:09:32.047-08:00Bring on the hot flashesYesterday was my last dose of clomid and I'm just waiting for the hot flashes to begin! That's usually the only s/e I get from the clomid. I have a doc appt Feb 16 the check follie size. I have to admit I haven't been as obsessed with TTC since I started Weight Watchers....I have been more obsessed about what I am putting into my mouth and losing weight. So far I'm down 11.4 lbs!bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-72279646538424878912009-01-24T18:36:00.000-08:002009-01-24T18:40:52.330-08:00Provera-Day 5 of 10Wish I were on Day 10 of provera already! I'm ready for AF to get here and get the show on the road! I'm remaining optimistic that clomid will make me ovulate...I've seemed to have luck on 150mg.<br />Just found out my cousin is pregnant and I couldn't be happier!!! She has had 3 miscarriages and really deserves a happy healthy pregnancy! I'm hoping to be joining her in pregnancy soon!!! <br />DH and I have been talking about what to do with our tax return....I thought I would like to save some for nursery furniture in case we get pregnant soon!...there's that optimism I was talking about. So of course I have spent a couple of hours this evening looking at nursery furniture and crib bedding...I guess it never hurts to be prepared!bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-73855176495676383132009-01-20T08:16:00.000-08:002009-01-20T08:20:19.752-08:00Back on the fertility trainI'm going to start provera today so I can get started with clomid again. I'm really hoping this is my cycle! After 2+ years of trying, I'm ready for it to be my turn! If I get KU in Februrary, I would be due in November which is an important month to me as it was my late father's birth month. My dad died very unexpectedly in March 2007 at the age of 51 of a massive heart attack with no symptoms. It would seem very fitting for me to have a baby during his birth month...a tribute to him....also if I ever have a boy, he will be named after my father....Thomas.bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-48553864574943595142009-01-14T15:13:00.000-08:002009-01-14T15:16:59.766-08:00Ready to try again....I had a nice break from IF around the holidays but now I think I'm ready to get back on the horse. I have my scripts for provera and clomid....I just have to take my lazy butt to the pharmacy to pick it up. I might not end up need the provera at all....I started spotting today so I'm not sure if AF is on her way or what...it would be great if she came on her own but I'm not holding my breath. I think if it's not AF I'll wait and take an HPT just to make sure that I didn't have a miraculous break cycle BFP.bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-88373457842452894962008-12-06T09:08:00.000-08:002008-12-06T09:11:49.912-08:00I'm a bad blogger :-(I haven't written a post in over a month!!! Wow!!....I'm a bad girl!! Since my last post....I took clomid and ovulated, but BFN....really sucks! This cycle I am taking a break from fertility meds. With the holidays right around the corner, I just want to relax and enjoy Christmas! I have my yearly gyn appt on Monday so I will talk to my doc about our next step....I have a feeling he'll tell me that I need to see an RE which will put a hold on our TTC journey since we are OOP. That's all I know right now and I am really going to try to be better about blogging :-)bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-40232371111415197922008-11-01T18:31:00.000-07:002008-11-01T18:34:48.336-07:00Started Clomid again....Today is CD3....so I started up clomid 150 mg again. I am going to start temping tomorrow morning and I'm hoping to at least O this cycle.<br /><br />Today I took my niece to High School Musical 3! We had a lot of fun together....it always helps me feel positive about TTC when I spend time with her...I always get a renewed sense of hope.<br /><br />We'll see what this cycle brings. I hope the side effects aren't too terrible!bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-71538424741287192972008-10-25T08:46:00.000-07:002008-10-25T08:50:12.563-07:00Hurry up AF!Finished my last provera pill a couple days ago and now I'm just waiting for AF to arrive so I can start clomid again....sometimes I think that I am crazy for going back to clomid....dealing with the hot flashes and what not but it's just so much cheaper and the 150 mg did make me o so why not give it another try.<br /><br />I am usually really open about what I'm going through as far as fertility meds but this cycle I've decided to keep it to myself and a few choice people (and of course all the ladies on TTTC!)<br /><br />I'm hoping for the best but don't really have any expectations this cycle. I'm just hoping to o on my own.bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-60053033523296412652008-10-04T15:50:00.000-07:002008-10-04T16:02:52.528-07:00working lots of hours and that's about it.....Today I am working a 14 hour shift....I have no idea what I was thinking when I signed up for it....I was thinking about the money, I guess. Still no AF in sight which is what I suspected would happen. I know I need to induce my period, but it's kind of nice being on a "mini break" from the whole IF thing. I am going back on clomid (my choice) because femara is so expensive and I didn't even ovulate this last cycle. I did ovulate on 150 mg of clomid so I'm going to try that route again. <br /><br />I have not even begun to start the major procedures of IF. IUI and IVF are so expensive because I am completely OOP like a lot of women are and financially we just can't do it right now. It's so sad that it gets to a point that having a child depends on how much money you put into it....it just doesn't seem right.<br /><br />I am just praying that the fertility meds work...otherwise, I might have to say goodbye to my dream of becoming a mommy.bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-16749194570237735782008-09-24T15:12:00.000-07:002008-09-24T15:16:46.283-07:00I am so proud of myself...One of my co-workers is pregnant, so being the nice person that I am, I took up a collection to get her a group gift. As I'm standing in Target today in the middle of "baby land", I go about my business picking out stuff and thinking how cute it all was....but the best part....I didn't cry once! Everytime I go to the baby section in a store I always cry or at the very least tear up....but not today! This was a big thing for me.<br /><br />On the flip side, I did cry today because my temperature chart looks horrible and I'm pretty sure the doc was correct in saying I probably wasn't going to ovulate this cycle. It's amazing that the same dose made me ovulate last cycle, but not this one. I wish my body would just cooperate! I guess I'll wait a couple more weeks to see if anything happens and if not start the provera and move on.bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-39148660391910926732008-09-22T08:36:00.000-07:002008-09-22T08:44:38.083-07:00Broken<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhwpd7eNb2LMP8L4C5TZKvCaTc87iRue6rln1aoLBbs4wEAusoV7gl3wFTpGJeErUbAXY176rQTMEfXWYbxGERykIm-4w18xBIP0RQIqjhLFDiOEbUDwgw71x9huc5nDNCK_iXtHZfDINO8/s1600-h/InfertilityHurts.gif"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhwpd7eNb2LMP8L4C5TZKvCaTc87iRue6rln1aoLBbs4wEAusoV7gl3wFTpGJeErUbAXY176rQTMEfXWYbxGERykIm-4w18xBIP0RQIqjhLFDiOEbUDwgw71x9huc5nDNCK_iXtHZfDINO8/s320/InfertilityHurts.gif" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5248872090439342770" /></a><br />I have not gone through any advanced treatments yet but I still feel hopeless and hurt. I know that if it's God's will, it will happen. I am struggling to accept that. I know it doesn't matter what fertility treatments I undergo....pregnancy will only happen when it's God's will.<br /><br />Some days are definitely better than others. Most of the time I am a very happy person. I am always smiling and joking. My co-workers always tell me how boring work is when I'm not there. But there are days when my smile is so fake and my true friends can see right through me. It's hard to hear about other co-workers getting pregnant as soon as they start trying....and talking non-stop about pregnancy symptoms and how far along they are. It truly makes me jealous, and that upsets me because I am not usually a jealous person. I just don't know how to truly feel happy when I feel so broken...bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-66465697394137251652008-09-15T12:50:00.000-07:002008-09-15T12:53:51.843-07:00Ultrasound, Monday, Sept 15Today I went to my doctor for a follie study. He had a hard time seeing my ovaries because I had a lot of stool in my colon. However, he said that he didn't see any dominant follicles and he doesn't think I'm going to ovulate this cycle. But he said it wasn't impossible. He told me to keep charting and to call him if I have a temp shift that indicates ovulation. So for today, I am just really really bummed. I don't understand how last month I responded so great to the femara and this month nothing. <br /><br />At least Monday Night Football is on tonight....that will help take my mind of TTC.bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-16909633127142634792008-09-07T04:54:00.000-07:002008-09-07T05:04:48.293-07:00Gearing up for football season!Hooray! Football is finally here! Ben and I plan to sit on the couch all day and watch football. He can't wait to have a child to teach about football and baseball. Last night, I had a dream that we had a baby boy and I dressed him in a baby Steelers jersey and DH held him throughout an entire football game while explaining who the players were and what was happening. I actually woke up with tears in my eyes.<br /><div></div><br /><div>The picture is of Ben and I in Pennsylvania next to the Steelers stadium. Can't wait to have a mini Steeler fan :-) I have been scoping out the NFL shop for baby stuff...I'm so tempted to order things just so I have them, but don't wanna jinx myself.</div><br /><div></div><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEguXmjEvcIks_nfSdj8LgnBpHeASOf_kxFRegt00W-_40RhmWNYToV7Fn4GBf9x1VmYVsDcOXE7Mb4vEsWhf53srbeQuByyT0NJGysMHI0LSLEfb89OzxDeCOCOhxalm8CStFOQwIVCgiGY/s1600-h/000_0248.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5243248677640752114" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEguXmjEvcIks_nfSdj8LgnBpHeASOf_kxFRegt00W-_40RhmWNYToV7Fn4GBf9x1VmYVsDcOXE7Mb4vEsWhf53srbeQuByyT0NJGysMHI0LSLEfb89OzxDeCOCOhxalm8CStFOQwIVCgiGY/s320/000_0248.JPG" border="0" /></a>bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-57460955605608701272008-09-03T14:47:00.000-07:002008-09-03T14:55:30.929-07:00Wed. Sept 3. AF is finally leaving!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiEBCb_fpDY19eY-FKrTDBksaDWn2O1oDm1-QYonwSz4zC4Q8soM_g0kKSvLPelcpVa_sP5fiDMRMsTa2_gXuWB6Ypxr0pIX-dQLC3RHyB8K9B19dZOARJvUjq8aXZmYXOkYQVTGoGVc3s8/s1600-h/Copy+of+000_0288.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5241917037032049058" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiEBCb_fpDY19eY-FKrTDBksaDWn2O1oDm1-QYonwSz4zC4Q8soM_g0kKSvLPelcpVa_sP5fiDMRMsTa2_gXuWB6Ypxr0pIX-dQLC3RHyB8K9B19dZOARJvUjq8aXZmYXOkYQVTGoGVc3s8/s320/Copy+of+000_0288.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhrtIhxNxh9oTH2OPLRqpCJ78qDX6chvkeaMMOOdaoLUutxmho36clJlSG4X-gJ6tnLmGtEXLv9NCqabL_TccZt2UfjjBq1Txnk_v5oo_70Zx0-gyOL0KmtZNaDVBmn0LplOkmjHd2hzzbi/s1600-h/100_0828.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5241917042151913634" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhrtIhxNxh9oTH2OPLRqpCJ78qDX6chvkeaMMOOdaoLUutxmho36clJlSG4X-gJ6tnLmGtEXLv9NCqabL_TccZt2UfjjBq1Txnk_v5oo_70Zx0-gyOL0KmtZNaDVBmn0LplOkmjHd2hzzbi/s320/100_0828.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><div>Today is CD5 and AF is finally going away! I am on my 3rd day of femara (5mg) along with 1500 mg of metformin and a prenatal vitamin. I called my doctor's nurse yesterday to find out about having a HSG cause I have never had one and she said that when I come in for my next follicle study I could ask the doctor about it...which means I won't be able to have one this cycle. Hopefully I won't need one at all! So far, I'm feeling great....no side effects. I have 2 more days of femara and then I wait until Sept 15 to see my doctor (that will be day 17 and I usually ovulate on day 18)</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>My husband, Ben, is being really great. He takes great care of me and always listen to me complain about infertility and how it isn't fair that other people can get pregnant at the drop of a hat. Sometimes, I get really really bitter about the whole infertility thing, but then I tell myself, "What can I do about it?"..."Nothing". Another thing that is keeping me sane, are my 2 puppies, Taylor and Tucker!</div>bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-40775766732594946192008-08-12T14:15:00.000-07:002008-08-12T14:19:29.011-07:00August 12, 2008-Ultrasound-follicle studyToday is cycle day 14 for me and I went in today for a follicle study ultrasound. The doctor measured my uterine lining and said it was great! (10.5 thick) Then he looked at my ovaries and said I had a nice big follicle on my right ovary (19 mm)! He said follicles grow about 1mm each day and that I should ovulate in the next 6 days or so. I am so excited to finally have some good news....at least I know my body is starting to respond to treatment. My birthday is in 4 days and getting pregnant would be a wonderful birthday present! So for now, I'm just saying a lot of prayers and bd'ing a lot :-)bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1803534670605343444.post-15916368594618578562008-08-10T14:54:00.000-07:002008-08-10T15:08:44.680-07:00Our journey...as of August 10, 2008I am new to this whole blogging thing...but thought I'd give it a try.<br /><br /><br /><br />I married DH, Ben, on May 18, 2007. We have been together since 2004. I went off birth control pills in August 2006. I hoped that we would get pregnant without help. In September 2007, I went to the doctor, finally, and found out I had PCOS. She put me on metformin and hoped I would get AF on my own....which I didn't. In December 2007, I went to a different doctor who prescribed provera to induce AF. It had been a year and half since last AF, so it was the mother of all AF's! Then I started my first round of clomid-50 mg. I was so excited to finally be doing something for my IF. It broke my heart when I got a BFN and on top of that, I didn't get AF. So it was back to the doctor for another prescription of provera and clomid-100 mg. Again, was very optimistic! I even started temping and monitoring cervical mucus. Was devestated again when I got another BFN and no AF either. So I was onto my 3rd round of provera and clomid-150 mg. I decided that I wasn't going to temp because it was making me crazy and obsessive! I would temp all day long...crazy I know! On cd14 I had an u/s to check follies only to find out that I didn't really have a dominant one. There was one that was 1.5 cm (but it has to be 2 to 2.5 cm to release). My doctor said that it may or may not mature and release. On cd 35, I actually started AF on my own...maybe my body is starting to respond! So this last cycle I took femara-5 mg and am currently on cd 12. I have been temping again this cycle because my doctor wants to see my temp chart. I have an ultrasound on Tuesday, August 12 to check follies...I am trying to be optimistic but don't want to be heart broken again. And on top of it all, my insurance pays for zero infertility issues!<br /><br /><br /><br />This journey so far has shown me what a strong woman I am. It has tested my patience and my faith...but in the end has made me a better and more spiritual person. I believe that pregnancy will happen for me, I just hope it's sooner than later!bodybuilderswifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14682894908828694713noreply@blogger.com0