IUI#3=BFN

I don't know why I let myself get hopeful every cycle! Monday was 15dpiui and no AF....so I tested and of course, BFN. The next day AF arrived. Blah!

I know it sounds weird, but I'm kind of excited to be taking a break. It will be good for my sanity! I am hoping to drop some pounds and save up for IVF. I'm hoping we'll be able to do IVF sometime next year. I would like to drop about 50lbs before then. I found a great website to help me. www.sparkpeople.com I got that website from thebeadinglady! Thanks again for the tip!

Thanks to everyone for being so supportive. It really sucks that we have to deal with so much heartache :(

Wow! It's been a long time!

I have been inspired by some of the girls on the IF board to start blogging again....I just sat and read through my old blogs....it's amazing to read the emotions that I experienced so long ago, and am still experiencing.

Today, I am 12dpiui#3. I do not feel optimistic at all. So I guess I'm just waiting for AF to show. Unfortunately, if this cycle doesn't result in pregnancy, we are taking another break from TTC. I know that weight loss would help my chances of getting pregnant. Also, we need to save up some money because I think our next step will be IVF. We are lucky enough to now have 50% coverage for infertility but we have a $15,000 lifetime maximum, so I don't want to waste my entire coverage doing IUI's....I would rather move on with something that has a much higher chance of working!

HSG day!

I had my HSG this morning. It went great! Both tubes were open and it was painless. I only had to wait about 10 minutes for my doctor which was great....and since I work in the radiology department, the radiologist (the one who took the pictures) was really sweet. He was patting my shoulder and asking how I was. Anyways, I only felt a little pressure when he clamped my cervix and just a tiny bit of cramping when he injected the contrast. It wasn't bad at all!! My doc told me to use this cycle to my adavantage. I'm hoping the x-ray dye blasted my tubes WIDE open! Ben and I have talked about our next step if this cycle is a bust....and we have decided to take a break. Since we are completely out of pocket for infertility, we need to get our credit card payed off before we add more debt. I'm ok with our decision, but it makes me sad cause I know I'm not getting any younger.

Weight loss as of Tuesday: 18.8 lbs!

The thing that has sucked this week is that my home computer has a virus! And since I work at a hospital with public computers, I can't get online very often.

HSG scheduled

To my disappointment, AF arrived Monday morning at work. I had a hard time holding it together because at the moment, I am working with 3 pregnant ladies and I just found out my sister is KU (after messing up her BCP's). So it's been difficult for me to be surrounded by baby bumps.

The good news, I have an HSG scheduled for next Friday (March 13th). I am super excited because I know that those can be therapeutic and a lot of girls get pregnant after having that test done. Ben's SA is perfect so I'm hoping that this test will help me!

On the weight loss front, I'm down 17.4 lbs!!

FF gave me solid CH this morning!

According to FF I'm 3dpo today! I had a follie scan on Monday and I had a 30mm follie. I really hope this is finally my cycle!

As far as weight loss goes....I'm down 14.6 lbs. I have another weigh in on Tuesday! I hope the fact that I have been losing weight jump started my body into wanting to get pregnant!

Bring on the hot flashes

Yesterday was my last dose of clomid and I'm just waiting for the hot flashes to begin! That's usually the only s/e I get from the clomid. I have a doc appt Feb 16 the check follie size. I have to admit I haven't been as obsessed with TTC since I started Weight Watchers....I have been more obsessed about what I am putting into my mouth and losing weight. So far I'm down 11.4 lbs!

Provera-Day 5 of 10

Wish I were on Day 10 of provera already! I'm ready for AF to get here and get the show on the road! I'm remaining optimistic that clomid will make me ovulate...I've seemed to have luck on 150mg.
Just found out my cousin is pregnant and I couldn't be happier!!! She has had 3 miscarriages and really deserves a happy healthy pregnancy! I'm hoping to be joining her in pregnancy soon!!!
DH and I have been talking about what to do with our tax return....I thought I would like to save some for nursery furniture in case we get pregnant soon!...there's that optimism I was talking about. So of course I have spent a couple of hours this evening looking at nursery furniture and crib bedding...I guess it never hurts to be prepared!